It's All About God...and a baby.

I want what God wants for me...at least that's what my head says. In honesty, I'm hoping to the depths of my being that He wants a baby for my DH (dear husband) and I. Actually, just one baby to start with. I am hoping for several.

Here are some of the facts, though:
* God's will will be done, regardless of my plans. I am loved by him, so am hoping that a larger family is in his plan for my life.
* My dh and I are clinically infertile - we have seen a reproductive specialist, but we don't have results from initial tests...yet.
* I am 36 years old...enough said there.
* I may have other health concerns, but a firm diagnosis has not been pinned down. It may (or may not) end up being MS.
* I have been married more than 10 years, but this is the first time dh and I can really afford the treatments...and it's the first time we've been on the same page since being able to afford treatments.
* We have a wonderful teenager already...so basically, we're committing ourselves to a very long time period of parenting - but oh so looking forward to the new adventure!
* I am remaining anonymous due to privacy issues for my family...but I really, desperately needed an outlet to share my thoughts and feelings...so a blog it is.

I'm praying for a healthy pregnancy and baby in the near future. I have a sono-hysterogram booked for January 12, 2010. Hopefully, if it is clear, we'll be pregnant soon thereafter. My DH and I are so excited...we even have a girl's name already picked out...and are working on a boy's name. Perhaps that is premature, but we can hardly help ourselves...it's so intensely on our hearts!