Tired

Exhausted is how I felt this morning, even after waking from a long sleep.

Numbness once again visits me.

Exactly one week ago, we found out that our baby's heart stopped beating. We miscarried that same day at around 10:30pm.

I was recently informed that, although I did not experience a full-term pregnancy, I would experience a post-natal hormone crash, like the kind that follows the delivery of a child. Perhaps that is why I am up and down in some unpredictable manner.

The bleeding is there, but still tapering. The cramps are there, but lessened. The numbness is there. The shock. Disbelief.

Right or wrong...I pity myself right now.

Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light."
Matthew 11:28-30